Today

Well today is the day, to say the least I am pretty nervous about it. I don't know why I would be but I am. I hate confrontation and I don't know how I am going to handle some of the things that Jessica is going to say. I know I will be strong I mean for heavens sake we sat through court listened to her on the stand saying that we abuse the kids, if I didn't ring her neck then, I am pretty sure I will be able to be strong today. It is going to be hard sitting in a room with just her and the therapist for an hour but I think it will be even harder sitting in a room with, the kids therapist (note: the one Jessica takes them to, who only knows one side), The DCFS case worker (note: that has been friends with Jessica this whole case), The GAL (note: who also only knows one side and would like to see the kids taken away from us) and the family preservation therapist that has been working with all of us that feels that the kids are safe with us. Hopefully this all goes well.

Yesterday evening we had the FPT come over to our house just like every Tuesday night for the past two months to interact with us and the kids. Well he decided he wanted to speak the truth and let us know how getting full custody of the kids is probably not going to work out in our favor. He said that if we did go for full custody then we are going to go through a tough and a hard time (like these past two years haven't been)? That the only way we could get full custody is if we were able to prove that Jessica has harmed the children which with how she is and all of her cover ups it probably wont happen. (Don't you think that this whole abuse case, trial, lies, mental abuse done to the children on her behalf would be enough)? He tells us you would have to prove it. Just makes me sick to think that all this time we have had the kids taken away from us, all the pain, heartache and stress and we have done nothing wrong and she will probably end up with the kids. I don't what to take the kids out of her life she is their mother but I do want to get them out of the situation that they are in. If we don't get full custody all we want is for her to move out of her parents condo. Her mother has a huge negative impact on everything that has been going on. She is crazy, and very rude to her grandchildren and even Jessica. I don't know why Jessica would even want to be living there still when her mother is so rude to her and her kids.

On a high note: Jeff and I are getting out tomorrow night and going to the Kix Brooks concert. It will be nice to just get out.